ignoring the last//

as of late it's about myspace

and yet no bandwagons

go configure

changing all the while

things grow

evolve

even if there is no belief in evolution

:darwin

i am among a minority

i like change

unlike my enemy that i am

trying to conquer...

instability

shivers...

i will be a student

open to learn

open to stress

opening my future

stages

chapters

phases

i love all

above

my jesus is real

i need that

:realness:

through fireplaces

and excavators

it's him

even when i don't see

don't understand

or don't even care

though it takes a lot to admit

christmas is an evolving thing

when you get married

first tree

eggnog

gift list

but not the first

financial strain....

but it's part of evolution

evolve//

i find it interesting

topic jump

that some things are swear words to some

living together before a beautiful wedding day

or

taking a little more off the sin table

pregnancy with no ring

spiritual imperfections

not following as so many others

(and ended up in the same none the less)

just find it

yours

not of theirs

i want inspiration

i yearn for evolving creativity

to find that thing that is mine

not a bandwagon

not dependent

not in the rules

not theirs

evolving none the less

but still ignoring the last//