like my favorite beatle once said
'all you need is love'
who then went on to get with yoko ono.
and the rest is thankfully history.

througout my long days of boredom
hours of painting
scrapbooking my wedding
and foreverness of tv
cleaning our house
trying to find errands to run
heart to hearts with gramma
kickboxing and cardio videos
lists of my achievements for the day
and trying to figure it all out
i wonder why i have this?
i want to be sucessful
i want to earn money to put away for romania
i want to live the life God has called me to
and i SO eagerly want
and yet.......
beyond asking for prayer
asking for clear signs to mask my weakening faith
what is this?
we live in a beautiful world
why can i not feel beautiful?
not the world's idea
i'm sick of those wrinkle erasing, long sleekest hair, lose 30 in 30 commercials.
i so deeply want God's idea of a beautiful creation
definition please?
i don't kow if we'll ever know.
but i think part of it is placing flags on mountians
big or small
that you have conquered.
for Him.
for yourself.
for those people your heart breaks for.
maybe i'm just looking FOR my mountain to climb.
we'll go with that//