to be deep

right now

is beyond me

////

honesty

with others

looking on

observing

judging

interpreting

takes real

strength

...

fascades

are

frustrations

when you come to realize

what they truly are

when honesty

is revealed

////

a beautiful gown

stained with

wine

....

to begin to explain

would take strength

that i need

yet to

attain

////

no fascades here

just

a true fear

of

weakness

i think

to be deep

right now

is beyond me

////

honesty

with others

looking on

observing

judging

interpreting

takes real

strength

...

fascades

are

frustrations

when you come to realize

what they truly are

when honesty

is revealed

////

a beautiful gown

stained with

wine

....

to begin to explain

would take strength

that i need

yet to

attain

////

no fascades here

just

a true fear

of

weakness

i think

inspiration is an ambitious thing

it can be beautiful

i find the times that i feel
closest
and most passionate
with my Jesus

is when i feel inspired


usually by something very simple too


i feel driven
to paint
dance
or write
listen
or just tell him
how his beauty
is everywhere
in everything
everyone

you just have to use special eyes to see it

time can be beautiful

lately i have been
fascinated by simple things
little beautiful things
or random thoughts
sounds
people

my mom inspired me this weekend
she challenged me to do things
simple things
beautiful things
for people i normally wouldn't
that is a gorgeous thing for jesus to see us do
and not expect any thank you or gratitude


so what do you need?
can i help you....

six months

twenty four weeks

one hundred and eighty three days

together

living

loving

learning

growing

dreaming

crying

playing

listening

planning

helping

holding

laughing

i love you with

all i have

all i am

all i will have

and all i will be

...till the end...

you are my dream come true

everyday

be·lov·ed (b-lvd, -lvd)

adj.
Dearly loved.

1.
greatly loved; dear to the heart. –noun
2.a person who is greatly loved.

BUT SO MUCH MORE

thank you for

the best

one hundred and eighty three

days

yet.

in what way do
you describe
beauty//

? ? ?

that in itself
is a question with no definition

highly over-rated yet under-estimated

beauty is something many

strive for

need

consume

live for

lean on

hide behind

die for

it is

an identity

a war

a business opportunity

a security

webster says it is/:
"the quality present in a thing or person
that gives intense pleasure or deep satisfaction"

...with or without...

there is a difference

between

mirror beauty

&

real beauty

i'm not yet at the point of knowing

where the difference lies.

for what?

needing something

knowing more

and still unsure

for who?

• creativity is my beauty.

an open path

for how many days have I forgotten to journal
and found myself in a drone of
guilt and low self-worth.
A confusion of whatnot
and no where to go
And what’s it all for anyways?

no distracting
sounds
or
activities

journey after journey


Do I have what it takes
to be
that person
that wife
that daughter
granddaughter
whomever I may be.

And in it all
be Him?

I may be starting to
sew that flag
and write my song
stare at the peak in awe
I may make it
afterall….


One thousand one
One thousand two

It will keep my time

And down the path
With what by my side

The safe place removed
and only replaced

but confidence lacking.

11.42 and magnificent things

all that i know
is there's nothing here
to run from
everybody here's got
somebody
to lean on//

it's been so long
and so many more to come
near future
almost connected

did you want me to change?
well i changed for good.....

so many birthdays

more to come

happy
birthday
anniversary
wedding
day

celebrating what we've had
and will have
and do have
and still so unsure of

all in time
all in time